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My Experiences:
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I have never attempted suicide, but I have felt suicidal. There have been times where it all felt too much, and I just wanted to stop living. When everything felt awful and hopeless and I couldn’t imagine that it could ever get better and that life would always be like this. I felt like I was fundamentally broken in one way or another, like I came out of the mould wrong.
Things do get better, perhaps that sounds hollow right now, but it is the truth. I feel better now than I thought would ever be possible. I can see now how much my thoughts and beliefs that things couldn’t get better were being caused by my poor mental state. I am so glad that I am still here.
Perhaps you feel that this is generally true, just not for you, that you are different. Maybe like me, you felt like you had done things that you would never be able to move past, or that you are broken in ways that can’t be fixed. I certainly thought this was the case for me, and yet, it simply wasn’t true.